良来良去

Holiday~~~~

2011-12-13T22:11:00.003+08:00

Well, finally my turn to say this. However, this doesn't seem to be a season of jolly for me. Being such a hectic semester I had with casual work, assignments and study to an extent that I think that it was worse than my final year. Glad that the semester is over now.

Well, now that it is holiday, lots of things just started to spinning around my head. Worry bout job prospect, whereabouts of me and where should I go next. I do realize that there are things that you just can't plan. I just have to keep believing and hope all things goes well in the end like it always do.

Just found that friend from hometown is getting married and a friend that had long contact for a long time had actually married and even have a children now. Wow! got a little bits of that sigh expression. Seeing friends in theirs job and having family and going into theirs new journey of life while I still a sad student scrapping all his might to pass units in his study. Sometimes, I do hope that I am more capable and able to do much more.

So many things I hope I can do. So many I wish I can and there are things I wish that is not too late when the time when I capable. I really do. But, let just see what the future have for me, going to be positive and I believe greats things going to come as well.

What with naming these day

2011-07-21T11:06:00.001+08:00

In facebook recently there are pages where the parents will name their children some bizarre name if they get how many likes, well, it may sound interesting but I not sure what will the children think in the future. Well, I guess it kinda cool and awesome that you get special name and get everyone attention but some may get too far I suppose.

To name a few of the facebook page is

I'm David Bond, if this page gets 500,000 likes I will call my son James, and

1 million 'likes' and my wife has agreed to call our baby Megatron

I guess the James Bond will be cool but I not so sure about Megatron, I guess Optimus would will a better selection, haha. I guess all this will not happen is New Zealand, as NZ bans bizarre baby names, One thing for sure, I wouldn’t want to be call Mr. This will be a too much of a practical joke. Well. I think people are try to show creativitiy which is a good thing but then like I heard somewhere else, sometimes, a little too much is not a good thing and this naming case I guess, that apply too.

Memorize tunes

2011-06-19T21:00:00.001+08:00

being a quite stressful time but, found this nice music that made me relax

Round Up

2011-06-11T20:58:00.001+08:00

Ah, it have been awhile people, guess most have finish theirs exam with only a few lefts who have exam next weeks. There is no final exam for me in my final semester so yup, I have been growing mushroom in the past few days. Well, feel good and bad at the same time with nothing to do. It like finally, I can clear up my mind a bit lately.

Lots of things happen, of course it the stress of trying to get a job now since that I am graduating, finger crossed that I would be able to get a job.

Graduating is one heck of a complicated feeling, you feel happy and excited but also uncomfortable and sad at the same time. Well, obviously happy as not a student anymore but uneasy as going to change the lifestyle that I had for the past 24 years. And of course, trying to get a job as well.

This semester is one very not memorable but not a bad semester as well. Most of the people I know had graduated and leave so not so much of a friends here but got to knew some of supposedly “junior” groups of people so actually not that bad. Not that busy, but it depend on certain period of the semester as well. Study wise, not bad but could done better. One thing gonna miss saying will be “Next sem, gonna do better”.

Well, aside of that, still ok… being quite emo for the past weeks. Lost my grandma a few months ago, feel really sad, lose both my grandparents in less that a year, and the most regrettable part is that both didn’t manage to see my graduation. Ah, if only I didn’t fail any unit, they would be able to see my graduation. Indeed, if you ask me if I had any regret throughout my university, didn’t able to graduate earlier will be my regret.

Being so free also lead to lots of thinking and yup, feel like so desperate lately. haha… but oh well, I also no comment for this….. haha.

All well, till next time

Lost and Found??

2011-03-26T21:21:00.001+08:00

well, it have being a while. Finally got some time to sit down and do nothing, so well, better do update here, even though I think no one will interest in my current situation thought but oh well, just make like I talking to myself. well, quite a busy semester with lots of work and lot of question too.

graduation looming, lots of uncertainly had also taken it toll on me, lots of thing and what going to happen in future in my mind now as well. For assignments, you can always ask for sample, search online or ask some else to help, for exam, you can also plan your time and study hard but well, job, a career, it something worst than them all, haha. I have no good result nor good networking.

But that worry seem to be too excessive. It isn’t a issue that I can solve that I can solve by keep on worrying and worrying. All these worrying had made me a different person, worrying a lot stuff, my mind that suppose to focus on my study are occupied by all these worrying thus making a lot of my performance drop, doing a lot of mistake I never done, careless, forgot dateline and uncountable uncharacteristic mistaake.

So I feel kinda good now, I decide to focus on my study and do what I think would better improve me and myself instead of worry so much. Well, on the further note, I think I got new dilemma but oh well this is not where I would to tell but it is something fill with sigh as well.

But, I believe tomorrow is a better today than today. Hopefully all things change for the better. I hope, till then. bye

The Start of an End

2011-02-26T07:36:00.001+08:00

Ya, Starting next week shall be the start of my final semester, finger crossed it is my final semester without anymore hiccup, the being quite a bad week for me especially for my lab work.

My supervisor just left due to the end of his contract. Now, I am working of my own inside the lab. So, if anything, I had to consult my lecture this time around. This week though, bad things keep happen I wonder why, first, stuff that I need to use either cannot be find or I only found it after I use any alternative. Beaker break during experiment making me had to repeat it (the experiment usually last a week). Now I just remember that I forgot to put one of ingredient which make this week work into nothing. Ah…. feel so bad right now, just before the semester start to be like this, my final semester really gonna be good.

At least beside something bad, I still had something good to have. even though it happen beside this week. Well, I got letter of commendation. I pretty surprised as well.

Well, Final semesters, so wanted to graduate but so don’t wanted to as well, need to job hunt, and still feel like so many things I haven done as a student. but nah, I just gonna hope, as time gone, this sem gonna be better. Bad luck, bad luck go away…….

New year, now what?

2011-01-01T23:22:00.000+08:00

Well, it a year 2011 already, it been a traditional to state my goal for the year. Well this year is kinda different for the rest of it as I am graduating soon, Haha one more semester. Not sure of what kind of target, I should put for myself. Well, hmm, this is the few things on my mind now.

1. Final semester, get results as good as I can

2. On the lookout for a job

3. know more people

4. learn more skills

I guess that all, it is mostly general, well, I cant really see what ahead but then I should ready at any time to face the challenge.

An amazing year

2010-12-19T17:14:00.001+08:00

haha…. it not really end of year, having my Christmas break for my lab work. Enjoying my holiday and ya, I know result had been out a few days before but I still enjoying the feeling of it. It like finally go back to the places I belong to haha.

I still remember that when I use to be in primary, most of my teacher tend not to give me any attention as they think I am very much second rated. Well, even most of my classmate too. Even thought being “discriminate” in a way but I keep myself motivated and work my way up. Well, starting the high school well but then towards the end of the two years, I went soft on my effort and things went downhill. I never really recover from it, from the time I steps into university,every moment during announcement of result, I worry bout getting pass and throughout this time, there are lot of time that I actually fell. The pain is so unbearable than I seriously want to give it up. Giving my thought on changing another course. I still remember on the day of being interview for JCLA. The interviewer being frank with my worrying result and I did told them that I am considering to change but I still remember this happen next.

Interviewer: Why did you want to change course?

Me: I think I actually I not interested my course anymore

Interviewer: Then why you choose it in the first place, are you sure you not interested in it. that is not a good reason, you know.

It left me puzzled, yup true enough, even myself seem not convinced after this. after this I sought the answer while weighting the option to change course however, the answer I being searching come to no avail. I sincerely thankful to my friends that being helping and supporting through this tough time. More thankful is my parent that not just being support and motivate me to hold on to it despite I being failing theirs expectation and causing financial strand towards them as well.

There are times that I seem arrogant, I think I am. Sometimes there is just that confident that I think I able to accomplish anything if I really put effort in it. Thus, I decide to have one more go with more dose effort and with better refine strategy of facing my university life.

I started to pass and things started to turning to be better. it even more amazing when I think back, all this happen around two years ago, now all this seem to be a distant past. This year I have taken to another step. Never I need to worry about I pass or not but it now more to matter of how good it going to be. This semester, have being all good, but I hope to get better. One more semester to go. I hope and will this will be trying my best effort to get better. Hopefully I really do able to achieve it.

One things for sure, when things doesn’t go you ways, put more effort into and be patience.Somehow, someway, eventually things will slowly turn the tide and be better. Well, have hope and faith.

Haha, this have been a long post. That all, folk, seeya around

Recently

2010-12-09T22:57:00.001+08:00

well, it being a while,

It like holiday but I am not having holiday,

It like I have too much time to think or maybe I thinking too much,

It like wanted to have something but instead don’t want to have anything,

this week have been notoriously good to me, all the stuff I wanted and planned go upside down.

It like have a lot of worry but don’t know what is worry about or too much to worry.

Worry about the future seem an useless act as there is nothing much I can do to stop the moving motion that being set a long time ago.

It feel like there a lot that I wanted to talk about but don’t know where to start,

The fact is sometimes, even I myself don’t know myself on what I am thinking or feel,

It feel like I am missing something but I just don’t know what it is,

A truth that trying hide is trying to escape like hope is trying to get out from Pandora Box, however it is clear that it is no hope at all, even hoping that there is that slimmer of hope.

move forward, because it is not yesterday once more,

yesterday need to pass to come to today so it is alright to smile when yesterday become today. Some matter leave no regret as I try my best to live yesterday, but for some matter that didn’t have the courage or the opportunity to do so, it stay as only what if and only what if of what if where what if of one can wonder. with this what if carry to tomorrow as well. Well, it just a what if.

The reason why the future is unknown

well, as days grow, new reality also set it, lots of stuff that cannot be return and lot of stuff may happen in the future. Anticipating the future, yet which future is it. Bright, brittle, dark, planned, wave like, one that we forget when we grow old. no one knows, no one knows,it a road without road light not because it is dark but because one cannot see what in front and one cannot see what they left behind after a distance they go through.

Thank You

2010-11-06T08:36:00.001+08:00

Life is amusing. Sometimes, without any notice, someone that you used to have around is just suddenly not there anymore. It have being a great time that we have being spent together. It a shame that you cant see me me graduate when it is just so near. But, life move forward, you will be always in my mind and I will do my best to make you proud. So don’t worry, okay, your grandson gonna achieve big things some day, definitely will.

This certainly express my feeling now

Thank You……and

I love You……

I guess I am a Loner

2010-10-27T19:57:00.001+08:00

It have been and still is a difficult time for me,

Feel unwell but too much work for me to relax and rest,

Trying my best to finish the work but there is no end product at this moment,

Stress have come striking me again…

Feel like wanna talk but there is no one to talk.

Start to feel, I am a loner with no friends.

So think feel like want to say but don’t know where to start or who to talk to….

Miss the time of old time of supper, limteh and out for a drink…

Sigh,

Need to get back to work soon…

Hope there is end product later or else don’t know to sleep….

A nice music

2010-10-10T16:55:00.001+08:00

have come across this while play some game. good for me to release my stress lol…

here you go

Busy free week

2010-10-02T23:53:00.000+08:00

Well, It had being quite a week for me, basically had been had meeting for most of the week and went for to a place in between. Just had my design project presentation of Thursday. Well, thing look good, hopefully can score for the presentation.
On Tuesday, went to Coversham Wildlife park and yup, finally I got to touch Koala!!! haha….. let the the picture do the talking

Cute !!! lol

After this, I don’t think I want to drink that brand of milk liao….

Another cute one lol

Farm show, sheep shearing…. and some demonstration of the things they do

Day before presentation, in library

Next stop, Perth Royal Show on Thursday, went straight after presentation.

start of the main event… firework

finally the main one

A letter of thought

2010-09-21T10:37:00.001+08:00

Well, these are just some of the accumulative thought that I have this while.

Sometime, talking with some friends, some always said nice to be in Perth, it does sound nice and from the look of it too but then sometimes, they just don’t know those who move here are have to give up. For some, we need to leave our friends, the environment that we so used to and love just to be part of it. Sometimes, it just a heavy feeling that is very hard to speak out. Despite of this, I do agree like what being said in Fullmetal alchemist with the law of equivalent exchange. With all this that being give up, new experience and mindset or even self is being found. So sometimes, it is not a bad thing at all. For me, maybe I sound cold, but I do admit seldom I would like to settle to an environment, I always believe that I not going to stay here anyway. Back in the old time, I do have a feel like wanting to help out and stay as a part of it but I do realize, just like wave after wave that hit the shore, if one of the wave stop and the wave start to gather, it will become a tsunami, haha, Ultimately, like people always said it my life or if your life, it sometimes nice to be others in front of you but yet like being said it your life, in the end it is your life, so I think it is ok just be thinking for the good of your own self. sometime, this action of putting others in front of yourself, will let the burden keep land on you then one it will burst just like a tsunami, it be unstoppable and then destroy everything in it path, including you and other.

Beside that, I do realize how important dream it is for us as human, it gave us hope and strength to continue to move forward. That why, no matter who you are, there is certain some dream in your mind. However, it is heart wrecking when you found out that dream cannot be pursuit. Some will lose hope, some will be confuse, some will smile and find another way, and some, will keep try to hold onto it. I was once a latter category but that was a long time ago, yes, it is cruel yet very reality truth. As much as you wanted to, there will something in life that you just cant get to this no matter how hard you try. just like holding a needle in your palm, if you hold it too hard, you will get yourself injure injured, but then needle is not something that you can hold in your palm in the first place. for now, as long as I try, there is not regret no matter what the result is. this shattered dream will spurn me forward. it is not wrong to dream yet, sometime, by being too into a dream, it will be like in pitfall that have only one direction, down. it is supposed to go up, where angel and sun are, not down where there is only dark and cold. just like waking from a dream, when it over, it over…. There is always another days, another night to dream as long you wake up from the current dream, there is always a nice dream waiting for you to dream.

Unobore Deka

2010-09-06T20:32:00.001+08:00

Hello…… It been quite a while. Well, free week end in a blink of a eye. I know for some of you know that I went for a trip for the last free week. Yeap, it was fun but sorry, but today is not about the trip, well, I try to do that when I have the time. I being trying to catch up with my work since I come back. and now I got this little free time to blog. hmm… this time, I wanted to introduce I Japan Drama that I been watching. well, what so special about this. well, actually this drama is by Nagase Tomoyo. Don’t know who is him. well,

Yup, he is the guy from my boss my hero, the first Japanese drama that I watch and since then, I watch Japanese drama. Those, who know my boss my hero certainly know hilarious it is. Then, now he back but in any drama.

This time, he back as a detective. however, in each episode, he will fall in love with female criminal of that episode. Too bad, most of the female criminal is not that pretty, I have to said most cause, Toda Erika appear in one of episode (Oh Yes!!! hehe). This drama sometime doesnt make sense, however, it make you feel kinda boring but still want to finish it. The end part normally is the most LOL part. Overall, it a quite a good one and especially for someone like me, desperate and in total frustration, well, at least in a way, my situation is better than that character and somehow it cheer me and remind not to be too desperate and be natural. hahaha. Just a glimpse of the end part, it normally start with something like this

song and thought

2010-08-21T18:36:00.001+08:00

超爱王力宏的不知道的事

最有感粗触就是那一句就是多的是，你不知道的事

人生中，有很多事，你我都不知道

也许大家都有各自的原因，所以都没说

听着听着，好多的回忆慢慢否副浮现在脑里

感觉就想昨天般

时间久了

很多不知道的事，也渐渐变得不重要了

好多的画面和面孔，一幕一幕的闪过脑海中，

曾经的疯狂，曾经的放手，曾经的伤心，曾经的颓废，已变得不那么重要了

好想对他们说，多的是，你不知道的事，

但也就是如此，因为以不重要了吧

虽然，也有感叹但我知道以经不重要

此刻，

好想对你说，多的是，你不知道的事，

是否你我就可以走近一点

或者你也想对我说，多的是，你不知道的事

不可能吧，自己都在嘲笑自己的想像力

算了

明天，

一天还是24个小时，

地球也一样在转，

继续望到窒息,

暗自里想着多的是，你不知道的事

!st week

2010-08-05T10:20:00.001+08:00

first week of study… ya the title is ! instead of 1. I purposely put ! that 1. one thing is it does look like 1 but another thing is that the first week also have ! sign for various reason. I believe that normally if the 1st week goes well, the rest of the semester would be a click. well, like normal, 1st week also bring a much stress as to study week. Stuff like finding a group are to be settle, you start to worry the stuff you are going study and for this semester, I have a new concern, I still need find industrial training and hopefully search for some job opportunity that I can take around one year from now.

I started to notice how unaware of me all these years especially those time spend in miri, labeling myself as student that up to be engineer. taken for granted in my study, my time and my overall awareness of the field that I think I am going to work one day. For now, I feel like I am frog under a well comparing to my fellow classmate, I didn’t know any company or even confuses myself of what I going to do in my profession later on until last year.

Well, I am in sort of having mixed feeling now. nervous, scare, stress for the future, I have to admit it look bleak, especial with my poor result and I myself don’t have the necessary social network that may land me a job. but, in some way, I feel grad and anxious as I still some little time for me to change, hopefully for the better future. I also glad that I did come Perth. As the environment here do knock and wake me up from lot of things. The bad part is that it seem that the connection between my circle of friends that I left in Miri seem isn’t close as before. But at least, this time around it should hard for me to lose contact with them which happened to me until my university days. hahaha……

signing off…..

I am still awake for now…

2010-07-21T22:21:00.001+08:00

Haha… feeling pretty bore. Had been having a lot of sleep lately and doing nothing much either. Just realize this sem, I will be overcredit. A bit worry but yup I have confidence to dealt it. Since holiday is quite free for me, so I had been seeing and think quite a bit lately too.

These days, my entertainment to watch how a cook prepare a meal, it really entertain me. some would even make me laugh like watching a comedy, sometime the cook try to fry something but they forget to start the fire. some just trying to cut the material as they are cooking. it just hilarious to see but it does remind myself how I cook once, I think I am part of them.. once la…. not now. Maybe sometime in the future, I am too but at the now, I am a cook haha….. I take my time to prepare the material and making sure I have a nice meal prepare. For now I am still awake… =D

My inner self conversation

2010-07-16T22:10:00.001+08:00

Personally, I didn’t really like holiday. Some may wonder it is too bored, yup, it is one of the reason. well, at the start of semester is normally the time that I would be kinda “Horny”. haha… well, maybe I am too free during that period so I would easily fall for people during that time. But can’t blame me as well, I am nearing 25, nearing the end of my study and have been single ever since I was born to earth. It is obvious that I would like to find another partner. Sound desperate , haha I guess I get even worst.

Well, I being seeing a lot and thinking a lot these days, around last year that I actually do that. Of course will the feeling of wanting to find one but then, even though you find one, there would be a whole different story later on, getting the girl or not is a different story, maintaining the relationship would be another issues. Maybe I had grown up a bit these past few months, I seen how desperate people can be, how a close couple turn into enemy like normal people, how people being hurt by lies and betrayal. It does made me think and frankly it does scare me sometimes. But I do admit, I was desperate last time out, maybe I am still but these days I am to just let it be.

However, these days, I would try not to bother these things. I started to freak out when I think I am falling for someone. no confidence, maybe but I think it is worse than that. I would keep tell myself that it all illusion that I should be happy or have any feeling towards it. Well, I am confusing myself, I know in some way I think I am ready but still there is always doubt lingering in my mind. In the end, nowadays, I would easily have the feel good towards some girl but it can always go away kinda fast as well. I think I am getting to the point that I dare not to be serious in this matter anymore.

by the end of day the cause is fear of rejection. I think I am not afraid of being reject or I would think it is part of the process but I just found out deep inside, the seed of fear have already been rooting in my heart for sometime. I just don’t feel like want to endure any rejection anymore. Hiding myself in the shadows of my own past, living presently in my own fantasy, wishing the future would be kind to me. But hey, I know this kind of things would need effort to be reward. but I had come to the point that I fear that my effort would be fruitless. I totally freak out and uninspiring in this matter. Sometimes, I would really wanted to find someone to talk and ask for help or anything that would help get over this but seriously I don’t know how to started. Or worst, others would just said that I am desperate.

I use to care when others said I look and are desperate but I don’t care anymore. I just don’t feel like falling down this endless pit where it lead to nowhere. Right now, I think that I am like Newton that waiting for the apple to fall down. But, when the apple fall down, will I actually like him would come out the theory of gravity or I would just touch my head that said to myself, this is just another bad day, then move away hoping for a better tomorrow. For now, it seem to be the latter one.

Result is Out!!!

2010-07-14T16:16:00.001+08:00

as the title shown, result is out. I know it early this morning, around 12 am so can say is today. Things look quite promising but still got room for improvement. I can see the day of my graduation. Overall, I think I did not bad. However, time to ask for more from myself and to reach out further more. last semester, I am sort like a geek studying most of time. next semester, I should be more connecting with the outside world while I also need to up my result as well.

Well, this is kind of scary period for me soon, I need to find a place for my industrial training and then a job soon. I hope I be able to get it. Yup, I should keep believing.

For those who passed and get the result their want, job well done and keep up the good work.

For those who get supp, you still got second chance and you can passed

that all for now,

logging off……

A just don’t know anymore story

2010-07-05T00:26:00.000+08:00

there is a traveler who had floating in the middle in the sea…. without any direction nor knowing any direction that he want or should go. In his mind, everything seem come to a pause, he is thinking and thinking hard very hard, yet he don’t know what next anymore, he don’t know what he want, what he should do and what should he believe anymore. looking at passing day and night seem the same for him. going to left and right both seem that it not going to get him anywhere he wanted. Walking between the supposed dotted line is now is now seem a option. He wanted to swim yet he think that floating like this would be the best way. Sometimes, he would wishes the darkness would swallow him and he know darkness is slowly corrode him. he start to wonder, even if the darkness did indeed take him, will he be able find land after floating some long in this sea that contain only cold and without live.Will this land is the promised land that this traveler had been seek for so long. Even if he able to set foot on this land, will the darkness that swallow him come back to haunt him…

There is some many question of this traveler mind yet he just don’t know anymore… maybe like what he had been doing is actually the best option, floating without any direction may well be the best for him. But who can say it is the truth. well, it is just a just don’t know anymore story that need not to know.

Hi Hi

2010-07-01T23:04:00.001+08:00

Yo, it been a long time. exam is long finish. Now I am at home enjoying my holiday. How is my exam? well, I think I would done enough to get through it. It should be. Well, still have to wait for result to come out to confirm it. Now it been the second of holiday. Basically, for the moment, I am doing nothing, seriously nothing how bore is holiday, what a workaholic I am. Beside going for a paintball before I come back. Most of my time, I either spend in bed or in front of a screen. I am so free that I keep streaming for youtube and getting myself addicted to korean girl groups, with “s” mean a lot of group.

Well, 2 more days, that I be traveling around. this Saturday to Miri then rainforest in Kuching. Well, this may be last vacation for my university life. well, It will be cause I don’t want to have any delay to graduate anymore. well, now it seem pretty soon a new chapter will begin in a not far future.

Well, by this, I also finish another semester, it had been great experience thus far. A great one. Things seem going nice at the moment, I hope it continue this way. That all for now,

Logging of……

Exam

2010-06-13T10:14:00.001+08:00

The picture said it all. In around 26 hours, I will have my first ever exam outside Malaysia. Haha….. feel kind nervous and trying to be calm. I can’t really said I have the best preparation. Being doing my advance process control project for the most part of study week. Well, I hoping and praying that my effort for this last few days and my revision during the course of my study would be enough for me.

For those who also having exam, all the best. I think this song would best fit for the moment now… once again, all the best and +u

Logging off

Frustrating time

2010-05-16T20:05:00.001+08:00

Yea, this been one of the frustrating time that I have. It been awhile, since I am busy with my work. Why I am free, ya, cause I don't know how to do for some of my work. It had been a frustrating time for in last few days. Do you even feel that no matter how hard you try, things just wouldn't go your way, well, I am feeling right now. Doubting myself, stress, frustrated, tired, and sleepy. You name any negative feeling, I got it. Sigh…. Well, tomorrow will be a better day, yeah, it will

Free Week

2010-04-13T19:29:00.002+08:00

I know it is the second day after my free weeks, but since that is free week I also want to be free also… hahaha
Well, what did I do for free weeks? Hmm…. Actually not much, basically just the day, eat, sleep and play. Yeap, since it is free week, so I didn’t do much study and I got midterm for these 2 weeks. Haiz… there a bit of regret to study early but should be ok if I go according to my study plan. If not I would not blog anything
Hmmm…… well, for me both Saturday of my free week were memorable. Well, for the first week, a few friends and I went to join Agape True North Amazing. Well, it is quite fun as not only I able to meet with a few new friends along the way; I was able to walk around some of the famous landmark of Perth. Too bad, I didn’t have any pictures to show as it is a race. Basically, It was kind of event that remind me what I use to do. Haha, crazy stuff….. I used mouth to pick scrabble words tile from a basin of flour, egg and jelly, not only that, but I also use mouth to try to peer of lemon to find its seeds. In the end, my groups end up as group 8 to arrive out of 10. Well, it is the wonderful experience that matter anyway.
Then, the next Saturday, my friends went to eat, well I post these pictures into my facebook already. Basically, we went to Fremantle for ramen, and then went for a chocolate snack, next we wanted to go a drink, ya a drink but too bad, we didn’t have our passport so we can’t enter. Then, in the evening, we went to Mundaring for pizza. The pizza there is really tastely and on its counter, you can see different kind of awards for their pizza. And I saw that they also won the 2009 world pizza championship, so you can expect the taste it like.
Ramen

chocolate snack

The Pizza,

my fav

Perth Storm

2010-03-23T21:15:00.000+08:00

As the title show, Perth had been hit by a thunderstorm yesterday, I not going to elaborate more on the storm detail as you can read from Storm Warning for Perth (Thanks Alex for the source). Well, it is incredible as now, there also a facebook group had been create after the event, whose share experience and picture of the event.

Well, when I the storm started, I am actually having my lecture. At first, the electricity is not that stable, the light keep switch off and turn on again and it gets more and more frequent. Next thing, the class knew we can keep heard the thunder roaring outside the building. During that time, the class is trying to solving an example (the funny part, the lecture always finish earlier due to projector failure, well not this time) and just when I almost finish it. The alarm rang and there is announcement to call everything to get out. As me and some of my friends reach the front door, we can see there a lot of people waiting at the building entrance and it raining really heavily outside.

People stanidng outside, if see carefully, you can see the rain outside

Well, next thing I know, there are no light. My friends and I decide to wait for the rain to stopped. Then, there are staffs coming out to call all students to get out of the building, so my friends and I have to wait outside where there is shade. While I was waiting outside for the rain to subside, I received a message from my brother that my home had been flooded by rain water, talking about bad luck. After the rain is subsiding, I went the bus station to get back to my house.

My home is flooded in the front door and its side door, and the bathroom of my newly moved room also been flooded as some part of my bedroom. The worst part, there is no electricity and no gases for dinner. Luckily, a friend of mine brought us out to dinner, and then we went to campus to online while waiting for the electricity to be back. While I am in campus, I saw this, yeap, you not gonna see it in Miri.

When I got back around mid-night, the electricity still have back and it is until this afternoon that there is electricity. Well, at first the storm would really excited anyone but then after the damage that it done, it is a pain to clear the debris and dirt that it's left behind.

Perth… Perth

2010-03-14T23:16:00.000+08:00

Well, it had been a long time since my last update. I even got a few complaint I like completely sort of "disappear" into the background. Hmm…. No worry, I back here to do a bit of update. Well, this is the 3^rd week since I been out of the country. So far, everything had been going well. Well, there is reason why I didn't blog since I came here. My rooms have not really settled yet, as my brother and I are still waiting for the other tenants to move out so we can move to our real room. Due to this, my current room is in a mess and it just a good environment to "inspire" me to do any blogging.

Hmm….. where shall I start, well, Chinese New Year. This year, didn't got the chance to go visit others as I departing to Perth at the 3^rd day of CNY, too bad then but still able to meet my friend as they come to visit me.

My flight bring me from Sibu to Kuching then Kuching to KL, there I have to stay overnight at KLIA before depart to Perth in the morning. Well, it is a torture to stay overnight at KLIA where there is no nice place to sleep. Sleep at Burger King but then the staff come to awake those that sleep there and chase them away even though there is no more customer. One word "Sien". During my sleep, there seem to be a group of tourist guide talking about business and chit chatting there, during I awake and went to sleep again. Whole night, when I was awake, I just keep listening to one of them talk.

Then arrive at Perth then sleep early and go campus the next day.

At first, the campus is huge, much more than Miri one but one things they sure can't beat Miri campus is Miri start-up team. Haha…. But maybe different system and culture, I can said Miri's Start-up team have more hospitality and more "goodies" (saw it from friend's blog), how I wish could get that. Ahahaha…. But other than that, Bentley campus is a league of its own when compare to Miri. Take example, here, to do the Student ID, you take number, show your advise slip, passport (I am international student), then you take your picture over there and around 1-2 min, the card is already been print out. Unlike, Miri where the card are not much of use, here seriously you won't want to lose it, you use it to access some of the labs, to print stuff so you be in lots of trouble if you lose it.

And ONE MORE thing, who said where computer slow and internet is lag. It a totally lie. Some of the lab in engineering is using i-7 processer, and beside the drawback of the 1 gb data usage quota, the internet is way faster than in Malaysia. Next I shall use pic to do the talking.

Angpou from flight Kuching to KL, guess what inside,

“Cold Coin”, I tot will have real money inside

Fremantle Trip

The driver forget to close the enjin....... lol

Perth Zoo

All these are outside the zoo..

Alright till next time

logging off......

Wishing Everyone A happy Chinese New Year

2010-02-14T10:39:00.000+08:00

I here would like to wish everyone a happy Chinese New Year. For those couples, happy Valentine....

logging off......

Goal @ 2010

2010-01-04T21:34:00.001+08:00

Well… Well… it been a while now, it is now the fourth day into the new year.

There is Chinese proverb where plan for the day start in the morning, plan for the year start during the start of the year. Since last year, I set some goal for myself and it seem to be working so I gonna do it again this year.

This year gonna full of unknown, changing environment mean that I can't expect the same sort of lifestyle anymore.

So first and foremost goal,

Get use to new environment quick. I still remember when I started to study in Miri and there a few things happen, It really hit me hard that I need quite some time to get use to it. However, a lot of things also happen, hopefully I more equip to changing environment this time around.

Next, time to upgrade result……..

Then, social networking. I know quite a few people this year but then I not really know anything about my classmate or coursemate. Time to change that.

Learn a new skill. Still remember last time. I got a special time for my self call "Self Skill Upgrade" where I learn a new things but things didn't work out well, hopefully can learn some skills soon.

Or ya before I forget, get to shape…. Hahaha

These shall be the major goal for the 2010. Hopefully, 2010 is a better year than 2009. Every tomorrow will be better as well.

Logging off……

Well, reflection for a long time

2009-12-30T22:22:00.001+08:00

Doing nothing…thinking nothing

This had been the story for my holiday. Now, hope that I can get prepare for next year.

This year going to end soon, from my perspective, this is a good and memorable year. Try a lot of new things, know quite a few people. Personally, I think my personality wise I change a lot and know more about myself, well the bad side.

Nowadays, I seldom reflect back what I did, almost never. Maybe, nowadays I more "look to the future" type that dwell in the past. Or I had realize past achievement when get you anything. Only pure ability gets you to the top. Yea! When reaching to the top, no progress means you are going backward.

Sometimes, I tend to get too relaxed, well, sometimes rest is part of battle plan, but resting too much is not good.

Need to find that want and will achieve target attitude. Self-confidence always been an issues but that cannot be a reason again for next year. Like business nowadays, some just don't care how you play it, its result does matter.

Well, with that I would also need to make up my mind on certain matter. This year particularly, I have problem to make certain decision and stick to it. For example, just like eating something, apple and honeydew, just when I want to take a bite of honeydew then suddenly I feel like want to eat apple. Well, this is disturbing just that this thing keep happening. Well, really have to stick to what I had decided. I guess, for now that matter won't bug me for the moments. So I have some piece of mind for now.

Maybe this is the bad habits of me, where I would like to think back a situation then think of what if….. this, what if… that, but there is only one life and one decision, scare of making the wrong decision. Well….. time to really to get it over.

At the moment, there are still some shadow figures and event hovering in my head. Maybe, for this, it is not the indecisive. Maybe is my choice to keep that way. Yea, maybe I still want it to stay that way.

Signing off……

done modification

2009-12-24T20:00:00.000+08:00

basically finish modify the top button... have now put 3 link instead. one to my facebook, then my plurk then is blogger home... for now is this 3 unless i can think any new link to put in...

however, for the my facebook seem to have some problem to show my real profile page... so i gonna see if i can fix it or not....if not juz leave it la....

under construction

2009-12-22T21:58:00.000+08:00

will be changing template and do some update... the link esp the top will not be useful until all had been done

Holiday….juz lazy…

2009-12-14T20:39:00.001+08:00

Almost a month to my holiday…. Serious… I don't know what I have done throughout the few month…

All I do is game… anime… then drama… haha ya…. Apparent watching a Korean drama,"IRIS" because it look kinda cool. But I skip the romantic part la….. Like wasting my time seeing people romantic xp

Holiday… it always the time I rot at home. Most of my friend is not at hometown. Got a few but then… kind of lazy to call them for a drink or what… really different when I go to a semester where I will make myself "busy" but this is holiday right..

But then every time come holiday, where I think I become "stupid" due to the lack use of my brain haha…. My growth is not towards sky but the front…. So is my weight increase…

This is also the last chance I would have this kind of holiday as I will to do industry training next year and all good I be graduate and hopefully come a job.

Another stage of my life, I guess… well…..

But now I just lazy…

Lazy to contact friend…

Lazy to do anything….

Lazy to do any sports….

Lazy to anything….

Guess there are things I would be lazy…. But then…. Well…… that all la….

Logging off……

End of the year review and looking forward….

2009-12-10T20:36:00.001+08:00

Well, after the release of my result so officially I can say most of the things for this year had already been done. Now I can truly enjoy my holiday…. Everything went well for my result. All pass but a lot of improvement can be done.

Haha, I think remember that I have set a plan for the year 2009 so let see what I think I had managed to achieve for my target.

Better grade… hmmm….. still not that good yet but I am passing my unit and nowadays have more confidence heading into a semester unlike last time where I feel tortured to start a semester.

Better decision making …. This I not sure I had made any right or wrong decision for any major things so let us see in the future. But thinking back especially this last few months, I had a lot of major decision to make. Things like should I tell or not. Then should I do it or not. For the first time, I also able to sort of letting something to go whereby the old me won't able to do. Wrong decision, maybe there is a few or one. But I not going to regret it because I think I learn and grow from it.

'Bad' in a better way…. Haha sort of able to do it but tend to be too much… lol…..

Discipline and hitting the goal…. Erm…. Not bad, still can improve.

More networking…. Haha…… I think I make quite a number of friends especially the last 3-4 month… thinking back… it is unbelievable.

This year end review also marks the starting of a new journey for me. I am going to heading a new country to continue my study. My target for next year??

Haha….. wait till January 1, 2010 lo…. Haha…

Till next time

Logging off……

Saturday…….

2009-11-21T22:30:00.002+08:00

Well, exam over and tomorrow is the start of the SOAR advisor training program. Well, should be the last one for me. Well, I might never able to let it go but well sometimes we just have to move on for the better of ourselves.

Today, have done a lot, wake up early for medical check-up, finally. Thanks kw n ray for helping and be there throughout the whole process. Luckily able to finish all the stuff needed on the very last min. The clinic is actually close but luckily they let me in and take the document needed. While, we are finding our way to the clinic, we come across a clinic name '随缘中医师'. When we see it, we really LOL.

So, come up with this fake conversation…
Patient    : 医生，我的病怎样
Doc     : 随缘
Patient    : 那医不医得好
Doc     : 随缘
Patient    : 那到底是怎样
Doc     : 随缘

Ahaha….., then went McDonald for lunch, call for 2 set lagi... very hungry till wanna pengsan already. Later we watch 2012. Kinda nice though. The value that we can learn from it, but well, 2012… end of the world.. well, let see how it goes….. but hope that I still got a long way to go.

Well that all from me
Logging off……

Well… update… and blog new look

2009-11-16T08:47:00.001+08:00

Hahaha, been a while….Having very very busy with exam and lots of work (still has actually). But had finish my exam, my exam oh well, I don't know what to say. Let just hope for the best. Next few things on the list the those clean up job that I need to do.

Again, changed to new template, I decided to make change to my usually policy, this time around I had decide to add in a link to connect to my facebook. I had also decide to plurk again, so there is a link to my plurk also. Another, interesting feature is that, it had a reactions box which you can tick on it…. I wonder how it work.

For those who still have exam, good luck and all the best

Logging off……

都是月亮惹得祸

2009-10-06T21:59:00.001+08:00

Mooncake festival have just to an end, having a enjoyable mooncake festival like usual not to mention free and tasty free meal for two days running. =p. If you notice my title, some of you certainly would know I not going to talk bout mooncake festival. Yeah, if you think like that then you are correct, give yourself a clap, hahaha…..

Alrite, come back, well, moon, for Chinese, for some sort of reason that it is relate to love, like yue lao =D. This semester, seem that a lot of people having love problem, or maybe that I not "kepo" to aware what going on last time or just this semester is special time for these problem to pop up. Haha….

Well, does heard a lot of story of no just "scandal" but also gossip and all kind of happy and sad stories, well, it does give me some new insight and different of thinking.

When come to love, not everything is going to be happy, yet that will not be the reason for us to stop falling for another. It is something that would bring mixed feeling that indescribable. A kind of happy feeling when you are able to meet someone you like, yet it may mixed with sadness if that person seem don't want to talk to you. A kind of "syok sendiri" that you would hug your own pillow hoping to dream bout her, yet feeling a bit stress that day pass by and yet nothing happen.

When it comes to love thing, people tend to be blind and not aware things that they would normally notice. Some also come to an expectation so high when it is not the kind of storyline they have, they would do things unrationally. Some may have not the kind of proper they hope and then things go tense.

Sad storyline, hmmm well, I do believe that in life, when you lost something, in a meantime, you gain something in return just that maybe you didn't aware of this. Sad is a normal thing, well we are human aren't we? Just that sometimes, we need to learn to look things at the bright side. Not easy, but hey, you want a happy life or a sad life, it your choice.

It does make me wonder what the future have for me. Is it going to be a happy story, sad story? When time comes, am I ready for this? Well, I haven have anyone, yet it easy to see that it not easy task. For the moment all I can do, is

do my job as a student and a good son. Study hahaha……

keep goin on….. whole night also can't finish….. lol

I am Drunk…….

2009-09-23T23:51:00.001+08:00

Let the picture do the talking

I Proud I’m Kanowit-ian

2009-09-16T20:40:00.000+08:00

Oh well, Didn’t really manage to upload it since the line is so bad. Well, just have a chit chat with bus driver talking bout my hometown talk a lot of stuff but it make me wonder and start to feel proud that I actually from Kanowit.

I still remember that when I am still a little kid, I always whinging and complaining that I am not from the big city but now come to think about it, I should have grateful about it.

Been as a kid, you always don’t feel like study or playing but due to reason that your teacher is your parents or someone your family know would really act as very “good” motivation for your to study for your own good. OR imagine all of your teacher is their friend. Your parents would also easy find you in Cybercafe if you go.

Because of the small town I been, I have a bunch of friends been together from kindergarten till high school. Too bad, we either leave to other places either for study or work. However, we still get in touch whenever we are back.

Beside that, due to it is only a small town, we doesn’t have much entertainment at night time so all you do is to stay with family so in that case, I learned to value family much more.

It doesn't have beautiful light of the city,

it doesn't have entertainment of the city.

It doesn’t have the high class food of the city.

It doesn't have any high class tech to show off.

But,

It have the warmth of the family to fill up your day

We got homemade food with love, =p

We got as amazing traditional way and arts which is as cool as the high tech in the city.

Oh well, I am proud to be a kanowit-ian. =D

I just wanna said sumthing

2009-09-06T09:47:00.002+08:00

Yup, I back again……Just feel like wanna talk. Well, not going to use Chinese. It take a long time to just type that few words.

Just been thinking or thing that keeps popping out from my head. Well, what do you expect when you wake up at 6.30 but lazy to wake up from the bed.

Sometimes, I just think I am too nice, trying to think in people’s shoe but in the end, I forget by myself. Sometimes, I think I am stupid. Oh well, I do. That why, I had stop to reflect on each day nowadays, I still don’t know it is the correct decision or not but at least I think it is much better for me. Putting weigh on myself on every mistake I make. Running away from it, maybe. But, I start to understand that my concern is just what I think it would be. It just like a joke that I worry for other too much.

I always learn and train to think in other’s position, trying to be understandable and when one does not, you would said that person is selfish, naïve but hey, sometime I wanna be like them, serious I do, what the point that people said you are nice, understandable but deep inside, you are not. Sad part is, you have to show such “openness” and “happiness” each time. Life is a movie and you are an actor, which sounds true to me.

I still remember the main reason I started to write blog or anything. It is to write anything that I couldn’t shown show that why I wrote to keep my sanity alive. Yeah, if not, I would be a psycho now.

The bad part when you are an analyzer is that you tend want to found out what wrong with this and what wrong with that. But you know what, what happen if can’t blame anyone or anything. Well, all you can do is blame yourself. So ironic….

Well, at least that is the easiest way to found out what is the mistake. Well, that why, I am tire and lazy to analyze the reason of a failure of anything.

All this just you are in the middle of the ocean, you trying to release yourself from it. But I started to feel tire and out of air. Waiting for rescue to come, but the sad part, it had been time and time again that it proven that for my case, no rescue will come, only me and the sea. Maybe I do not need rescue at all. Maybe I just hope and waiting for rescue instead of saving myself.

Conclusion, no conclusion, I am lazy to self motive myself, that the person that I am trying to motive just don’t get my point. But at least, he still alive, ;)

幻想曲

2009-09-05T13:17:00.001+08:00

好久没用华语来写些东西，就让我用华语说说一些东西

来到了沙漠想要找水，沙漠那有水呢
但沙漠也会有下雨的时候，但要等到什么时候才会下雨呢

记得学过仙人掌有水可解渴，就伸手过去
但可忘了仙人掌有刺，想要抓得越紧，就被扎得越多越痛

看到远方的绿洲，以为到达就好了
谁知是个幻觉，累了，
自己也有点不想提起脚走动。

但也不要忘了
下一秒也许会下雨
被刺到了，但却学到新的知识
幻觉就幻觉，有一天我会走到绿洲

我可以作个仙人掌，
我也可以就这样睡下去
但这还是我吗

当然不是

Recently

2009-08-19T08:36:00.002+08:00

It been a while. Been doing a lot of work, going through Start-up week, going through study week and now next will be free week already.

Well, I hate “natural selection”. Well, why must the good must be the good and bad is leave behind to rot together with the bad. this is stupid. I said this, maybe because I am one of the bad. I believe everyone had their role on this world and I believe one rule, what comes around goes around =D.

Semester had come so far yet I haven solve my confidence crisis yet. Crisis is a big words but yea… I think this is the first time I had confidence problem for such a long time. Last time, it would only need a few days to self-motivate myself. Now, this time around, it is different, when I though it is solve, it come back again.

I never think I can do good in anything nowadays, whatever activity or work I done, I seem to screw up thing. Argh….. Maybe, I been looking at negative thing for a long time that I forget how to see thing in a positive note. I can’t see anything strength or any good thing about myself these days.

Maybe this is sign of having too high expectation, I hope this is true. Haiz… Well, I still have to find and know more about myself I guess so that I know the root of my problem.

That all,

Till next time

Out of boredom

2009-08-16T18:27:00.002+08:00

Doing tutorial while playing, (oh well, like usual multitasking). Saw a quiz on a friend blog so since long time din blog anything liao so just put my result for fun (at least got update la).

quiz from http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

result is

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

oh well, true or not…. i also don’t know

Going to RWMF

2009-07-07T14:55:00.001+08:00

Tonight I be leaving Miri heading to Kuching to work in RWMF. Basically my job is to be security. And I just a hair cut that remind of my NS time….. hohoho.

Well, this is just a short post. Wish me luck and hope all the best for everything not just for the outbreak of the H1N1 and also for my result which is going to be releases soon.

Until then, see ya

update

2009-06-13T10:22:00.001+08:00

Yo, Final exam is heading to its final week, so is the countdown my last exam for this sem.

Well, I think some of confidence started to be restore and hopefully my last effort able to get me through ~~actually it is a must~~.

Well, everyone seem to be kinda stress out for this period. Oh, well take care and all the best for the remaining exam. While those who already finish their exam, happy holiday. Oh ya, for those having exam soon, +u.

There a chinese song for u all to chill out from the stress of exam. For those who is not, nvm la just enjoy

That all till next time…

It is this time of the year again

2009-06-07T08:41:00.001+08:00

well, final is coming soon…. been having headache in the morning these few days. Yesterday, feel like my nose is blocked. Haiz…. very worry.

Having a nightmare that I gg. Well, I don’t know to become reality. Gonna work hard on it so it won’t be. Arggghhhhhh!!!!

At the moment, kinda enjoy the song name the rose, very interesting lyrics too. Hope is around the corner. Always.(Hope for everything in life la… and stop saying me desperate !!!! ><). Here the lyrics

Some say love it is a river
that drowns the tender reed
Some say love it is a razer
that leaves your soul to blead
Some say love it is a hunger
an endless aching need
I say love it is a flower
and you it's only seed
It's the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken
who cannot seem to give
and the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live
When the night has been too lonely
and the road has been too long
and you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winterfar beneath the bitter snows
lies the seed
that with the sun's love
in the spring
becomes the rose

Well, that all.

All the best to all for their exam, +u

Nightmare

2009-05-24T06:25:00.001+08:00

Waking up and looking at this mess, it hurt really hurt. I really don’t want to give up but haiz….. but there is limitation for everyone. For the first time in my study, I am giving up a project yeah…. a project. A disaster that had well planned out.

around 24 hour to complete but serious I have no idea how to……. Guess this is only the beginning as there is a quiz later on that I haven got any time to revise and do anything around it. Oh man, what I’ve done wrong………. Haiz…………

Some thoughts

2009-05-22T17:46:00.000+08:00

I know I am suppose to be busy when yet this is also act to reminder to me as well.

- Sometimes, we can’t find a person weakness not because they doesn’t have one but they learn to use it together with their strength

-Not matter how self motivated you are, you still need motivation and support from somebody.

-It take a lifetime to earn trust and respect, but it take a blink of an eye to destroy it.

-Human like to make rule, yet they are also the who love to break the rule and use the rule to their own advantage.

- You get a job done when you do what you need to do, but you get a job well done when you enjoy what you need to do

-A person real character and strength only can bee seen in difficult situation.

-We also dream of other’s success but we seldom acknowledge the hardship they gone through and the persistent they have to reach the top.

- A great person is knowledgeable, able to make decision, have vision, have discipline. However, the different between a great leader, is that they are able to make other feel great and do great things.

Testing Time

2009-05-18T08:35:00.000+08:00

Well, here it come to the busiest time of the semester again. Next week, there will be 2 assignments due and one quiz. Looking back at this semester, it enjoyable but my result are still bad. one is ok but while the other two midterm was really bad.

This is also the time when all kind of management skills are tested to the max. Yup, any sort of management skills, time management, stress management, emotional management and even man management.

My first priority would be emo management, somehow, getting more emo these day. It okey to be emo once a while but this sem is too much. It had cause me to act weird, waste my time, and not function properly that I am suppose to. So starting now, I going to be who I suppose to be.

There is also one important thing I need to keep on doing which is keep myself motivated. Sometimes, I tend to forgot to motivate myself to do what I am suppose to do. Yup, self motivation. But, sometimes, it good to have other to motivate you. How I wish.

Alright, back to business…….

Recent update

2009-05-11T20:43:00.000+08:00

Yo, It been a while, This is gonna been quite so post since It been quite long that I had update First thing first, I really thanks to those that help me celebrate my birthday. It gonna be too special for me forget.

Then, I spent my birthday in Brunei. A nice trip overall with me still missing the food till now =P

Our driver/ navigator Steve Musical fountain

Ais kering tat stick to the cup A mob from Jerudong Park

Three lonely guy =P Ask Jun bout the feedback of the food

Then it was lot of assignments and test then fast forward to SOAR interview. Everything went smoothly but it is tiring.

While Last weekend was working in Jazz Fess as Schleppers. Basically, sometimes I help carry instrumental for the artists. I help take care of the barrier. Chase Kids out of barrier, Help people take video. Sleep while they are doing sound check but awake to clap hand when they finish. Tiring but great experience. Looking forward for rainforest.

Sad to said not much pictures =)

Sentence for thought

2009-04-14T21:33:00.001+08:00

You learn to wise when you think are a fool

We are to not given a long time so we appreciate life at it best

You can never know everything because you are human

A person who always think doesn’t mean that person is a great thinker because sometimes a great idea just suddenly pop out like that.

People like to complaint life is tough but what the point if it is easy.

Sometimes, the more negative you are, the more positive you are.

You like a person through appearance, but you love through the heart.

Sometimes, the simplest thing is harder thing to do.

Sometimes, you can lie to yourself about certain thing but your heart will always tell the truth

Take action but not wait for something to happen because it will never happen.

You can guess all you will want but it the end of the day, you can only know through founding out.

Crazy Wednesday

2009-04-09T08:20:00.000+08:00

Well, yesterday is a crazy day. Hahaha, since this week is free week and feedback from george that fast and furious is nice so me and my friends decide to go watch it.

On the way up, we are in the middle of traffic jam which delay us.

When we arrive, we straight go buy our ticket. and there is free time and I wanted to buy something so we go walk around.

Overall, the movie is nice. The first scene alone is quite cool. well, you better watch it yourself. good for car lover ~~and my friend comment that the cam keep stick on the girl butt so…. =P.~~

Then we went KFC for mini bucket… After we finish we felt not satisfied and went to Pizza Hut for another meal. Then we went to “Setapak” for drinks and chit chat till midnight.

Hmm, going to stop the spending and keep having fun spread before my Brunei trip on next week.

Recent update

2009-03-28T16:00:00.000+08:00

Well, it had been some time. Well, it had been a busy week for me. A lot of meeting as usual, briefing, planning, doing assignment and sort of thing like.

Friday, join UL workshop talking bout volunteerism, enjoyable and learn a few thing of volunteer which like the limit, and how to dealt (highlight by me and in my opinion, something which is important).

Today, went to home for age to work. just that like do thing alang-alang and did not finish with good fashion but never mind, limitation =P.

Beside, make clear of my mind of some of the problem that had bug me since the start of the semester. Well, the problem now is that I been acting weird lately, talk weirdly, act weirdly and my biological clock is upside down. But hey, what is normally?

For fun, fact

2009-03-15T15:46:00.001+08:00

This is just for fun……

Knowing something but not all of it, it kinda dangerous coz it the end, anything can happen.

There is a lot of secret and gossip flying around but it is nice to know but it is best to a fool.

Cannot talk can mean a lot of miscom but it can show who understand you.

Cannot talk is tiring coz it had to clarify thing but is very relax because no extra energy is spend on talking

Cannot talk also help to train you to listen but it made me analyze more… obviously people "secret"… lolx

I like to kepo people but with I share my secret if you seriously want to know (in private chat lar of course)=P

I can share my secret if you are ready to share yours. (Come'on lar, be fair)

You can gossip or play a joke on me as long no one is hurt (mentally/ physically)

I can show my serious side as long you are not afraid of it.

When I like someone, I will not know how to respond nor talk to that person (Luckily, my face won't turn red anymore).

I am someone with low esteem and a fool when it come to certain thing, so don't hint me coz I might think I think too much.

JUST SAY or WRITE to me….. XD

what a tiring week

2009-03-09T14:20:00.000+08:00

As the title show, a tiring week. Welcome back the depress mode. So many thing cram into a week and it a killer. Wave of assignments starting to pile and cannot really go out and enjoy. I don’t want to be owned with just only third week. Gonna really discipline myself to have a proper time management and resist temptation.

For some sort of reason, this semester doesn’t seem to be as FUN as last time out. One thing is maybe there is there is some affair that bugging everyone. For what sort of reasons, it seem that this time around everyone have secret that they do not want to tell. Well, to say or not is up to them, I respect the decision to say or not. Coz it might just change everything. And in a way I hate it but what can I do. Maybe for some reason, I not that trustable, for a good reason, it not good to know too much secret. You be dying brain cell just to keep it.

Well, I myself also have something that I do want to tell. Keeping secret is tiring. That explain my large quantity of white hair. But with a “good” memory, it even harder coz you tend to remember the secret. To tell or not, sound very easy. Actually it very easy if I am still the 12-13 years old me. As a child, you do not need to weigh anything or fear any consequence.

Then, pressure and confusion, and then choice. Do you even been on pressure to do something that it a way you think that you need and you should to do it. Well, it does cause a lot of confusion and it will affect you decision making. Now, I am struck between judgements and intuition. Maybe I know what I want just that maybe it is in the best interest not to do anything yet. All I can do now is that I cannot regret any decision that I do. What done is done.

Okay, hopefully, thing get better….

Trust in myself, Yeah

2009-03-07T09:12:00.000+08:00

Well, It the end of O-week already and ya, pressure of a submarine had release from my head. Kinda happy now.

Well, I don’t know but I been keep thinking trusting. In term of teamwork. Well, I do had this problem last time I admit but I still working. Looking from the past, I am a lonely worker yet now I understand to be successful you need to trust you team.

Well, for friends as well, things had gone well so far. The only main thing is to trust in myself. Pretty weird huh, yet that is the truth. Sometime, I had serious confidence issues with myself, the positive one is I want to challenge myself while the negative make me think that I not good enough for everything. In my every aspect, I think I not that good. That explain some of my action of getting some sort of “praise”. Pretty sad.

Sometime, I choose not to believe what I think because my ability to trust myself. In the end, I will just think I am not good enough.

I think it time to learn to trust myself, what I believe and what I perceptive because I am good and I myself is special in my own way ;)

End of 1st week

2009-02-26T20:52:00.001+08:00

Well, 1st week almost end already. This is one of the most chaos first I had. So many class clash happen and I miss one first lecturer of one unit. The first that I had done that. Hopefully, by next week, everything going to sort out.

The next one will be next week, will be hectic though but hopefully everyone in the Team able go through it.

Another one will be since I be in charge of the gathering game and since it is very important so in quite stress situation.

1st week only so hope I gear up for the rest of the sem

Simple

2009-02-21T11:16:00.001+08:00

Well, I change template, in the end, it is one of the simplest template. Well,some of you might feel weird, normally, other want to put as a cool template to suit their blog. However, my mood now is I just want simple. to be simple myself.

Well, a lot of thing happen, thing like this and like that happen. I seriously just want to be myself, the simple me. The one that can say what I want to say, what I want to do. Ya, this the sound bad. It is really frustrating following this and that. I have my own way yet….

adapt, I am sick you know, putting on a mask that I don’t even know who my self is. So sick that something I think that I have different personality.

In the end, it look like I am a bad person, well it be… I am bad, I am evil so what, let me be alone, let me be no friends, let me be failure. let the colour of my life to be left as black and white. let everything in me crush to nothing and what left shall be the true me.

Flood…. Flood

2009-02-05T22:46:00.001+08:00

Everyday, news on flood appear on newspaper or TV. Finally, just after a few days of CNY, Kanowit also hit by flood. Well, today also. There are rains all around Sarawak, and apparently, there is no solid any strategy or plan to help ease the matters. I not gonna complain or blame about who and who. However, it should make us think. Think around what??

Well, a few years ago, we as Human never really take care of our mother earth. Now, with so many nature disasters with magnitude that we never seen before, are we goin to wake up. Well, maybe it is too late, but it never too late to prevent it to be even worse

2009

2009-01-07T18:32:00.001+08:00

Yo, It is 2009 already... (It might be a bit late)

Read about a scientist report that new year with new hope make a bad year. Well, but me it time to really plan and set target already as it been a long time that I didn't do it and a lot of things had gone down at the same time.

2009 would be life determining year for me. A lot of future stuff and planning would be determine by 2009 so for so long their is a urge to do well in 2009

GOAL:

1. Better grades

2. Calmer and wiser in decision making during hard situation

3. "Bad" in a better way

4. more discipline

5. Follow my goal

6. make more and more friends

I been tagged again

2008-12-07T18:45:00.002+08:00

1.What's your ambition?
TO BE RICH, VERY RICH Wahahaha

2.Who is more important to you?Friends or boy/girlfriend?
Dunno, since I haven got a girlfriend

3.How often do you think of committing suicide?
When I still a kid, now I just wanna enjoy life...

4.Do you think you have enough confidence?
everything except when it come to exam... Hopefully can change it next sem

5.How many babies you want?
2 I think, also depend on my wife also

6.Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
I believe without a doubt

7.What is your goal for this year?
End of year so I put for next year lor

1. Get some good result

2.Get more friends

3.Learn more new skills

4. Dun get fat....XD

8.Do you believe in eternity love?
Sure

9.What's a prefect girlfriend/boyfriend like to u?(list 10)
1-Communicate well
2-Understand me
3-Support me
4-need my support too
5-KInd
6- optimistic person
7- be there when I just wanted someone to be there
8-Fine to my family
9- Love me
10- And I love her too

10.What are you really afraid of?
A lot like study lor, job in the future but it more of a unknown changelle

11.What are your bad habits?
Talk very loud, not really caring, sometime very emo

12.Is there anything you wanna tell the people who hate you?
I dont care liao

13.State a random fact about yourself.
-Been slim, fat and slim....

14.What does flying means to you?
Dreaming....

15.What do you crave for the most currently?
Knowledge and skill.....

16.Most unexpected gift you received so far and when?
Cant recall..... (I have a lot of enemy!!!! lol)

17.State one movie character that you wish to be.
James Bond XD

18.Are you currently single or?
Single

19.What will you become in another 10 years to come?
I will have a wonderful job, a wonderful wife, wonderful family...

20.You want to be male/female next time?
I still want to be male.... HAhah

Instructions:
Remove one question from above and add in your personal quetion.
Make a total of 20 questions and tag 5 peoples.
List them out at the end of the post. Notify them in their cbox that they've been tagged.

I tag

Vting, ehan, bloveleaf, eliabe, george

Tagged

2008-12-05T18:20:00.001+08:00

After so long, finally I reply back my tag...

And ray who tagged me is just beside me when posting it....

1. take a recent picture of yourself or take a picture right now
2. don't change ur clothes, just take a picture
3. post that picture with NO editing
4,post the picture with these instruction
5. tag 7 people to this
6. * no tag backs *

Since I dunno who to tagged

I tagged

Anyone who is read this... XD

At the moment

2008-11-23T10:11:00.001+08:00

Final exam is long over, still really haven recover from it. Wanted it to be good, but yet this had been the worse final I had ever had. Maybe due to my expectations, Haiz... really hope can pass all and especially that subject. Really fear that it is the end of the road. It been too far out to give out now.

I really hope that pass. Well, I promise to myself, if I can go through this out, I gonna really study. I mean the kind of effort that I used to have. Come'on, I just wanted a pass.

Well, today is day 2 of the SOAR trainng. Yesterday is tiring coz I been talking non-stop, but luckily everyhting seem to be just fine.

later on, gonna be helping out with the "Golden Child Camp" after the training.

Plan for holiday would be going to lankaryan with my friends. It been a while since I travel to somewhere new. That all for now.

Project "D"

2008-11-03T08:03:00.001+08:00

I seldom set target for my academic so this time around, I decide to change it. I gonna aim as high as possible. I gonna try my best, and hope for the best.

Even thought some result are not as I wanted but that should not be a problem. This time around,hopefully I can get my confidence back and the luck that always help me get through exam. Luck~~~, I keep believe and hopefully it will back this time sometimes.

Ok lor, project 'D" intialize!!!

I don't care le

2008-10-19T22:43:00.001+08:00

I started to get different, I tired of being good I think. Right now, I don't feel like review myself each day like I always do. I kind of tire of take every detail of what people think of me. It is tiring, I just wanted to be myself. I used to be always feel uncomfortable because of what people will think of me.

But it just like a rock keep on pressing to the ground. To said the true, I always think and really take serious of people said about me but sometimes I really can't take it all. It may change me as a better person but it also will destroy me in a way. I like the way I am now and for the moment, I don't wish to change anything about myself. There is no right or wrong.

Thus far, I may do a lot of things that I shouldn't do but I don't care anymore, I look what ahead and move forward with it. I can't say it do the right things but at least I happy with it. I appreciate what I have now ~~of course I want to add more~~.

I may be incisive at time, but that extra time make me see better in a lot things. What you want not necessarily is what you need. But sadly speaking, I feel alone now. There is so much I feel like say just I don't think there is a right person to talk to. But this is what I can said, it already 12 weeks to this semester, a lot of things happen and what I think and said maybe already change by the time I type it and it may change tomorrow as well.

Even so, I in a turbulent mood now, pretty moody now, hopefully I can solve my project problem tomorrow, and feel more relieved.

Stress- talking nonsense again....

2008-10-17T21:10:00.001+08:00

Down to one more assignment and down to a few weeks before final. Stress is coming to kick me again. Feel sleepy all the time I awake but cant forget the stress and have a good sleep. Really need to do well this time or else I can't forgive myself.

Maybe of the stress, I started to become weirdly emo. Feel like there are a lot of things going through my head yet due to some certain circumstances and reason, I just don't feel like saying it. I also found I am easily blur and confuse.

Sometimes, some choice are hard to make but sooner or later, we have to make it. Sometimes, something have to give. Hopefully, the next few days, all the analytical and judgement skills would be at the sharpest and no mistake will be made.

weirdly, sometimes, I wish to be alone yet I know most of times I wanted someone to talk to. Yeah, maybe of stress again.

It going to be another busy weekends YEah!!!!!

Sem 2, 2008 till now

2008-10-12T10:41:00.001+08:00

Time is flowing fast, now is Sunday. Fuh! End of semester is coming to a countdown. However, I really do enjoying this semester comparing to the some previous semester.

I be able to manage my time with more discipline. Have the chance to do stuff like hangout with friends, Raya visit and lot more. Beside that, I also change my labtop, yeah!!! My old one is still okay just that, it getting old and can't run a lot of application.

Around 3-4 weeks left before final, still have a few assignments left. Hopefully things go smoothly.

But curiously, this sem seem to the season of love. Here I would like to congrat Sienz. Hihi..... while some of my friends have their own share of "problems" (Or just I just realized). Me... Still working on it, but doesn't seem like anyone want me... sigh... but nevermind, I still believe and believing.

All the best for myself, chiong towards my targets(got "s") and achieve the best...

Exam Trilogy

2008-10-06T07:02:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow will be the start of mine three midterm. Sigh, this free week turning out to be study week and I didn't really study throughout the week. Haven't been doing a good midterm for quite sometimes. Hopefully, this time it will be different. My Streamyx line is pretty good these few days, it having no Internet to signal me to go study. Hahaha. For your information, this entry is wrote while I have no Internet. Keep on study stress me up. Been sleeping a lot these few days. Craving to have fun, play games been on an all time high.

Really need dislipin now,

Ok good luck and all the best to myself, GO GO GO!!!!

Raya Visit 2008

2008-10-03T03:23:00.002+08:00

Been here for a few years already, but this year have the chance to go some CVians! house for house visit. Although just two of our friends but yeah it was fun.

First stop, Mohd Izzat house

and believe he is a good son that why he is read this

We found something nice in Izzat house

we been there for a few hours talking and then go to another gathering place to wait for our next stop

we talk about reserve and making fun of it while there are those who are cooking, doing assignments and nothing.

Next, Asfan house

Then we cam-whoring until we go back

Lean on

2008-10-01T08:12:00.001+08:00

Remember the song “Lean on me”

Everyone has their own problem and their own weakness. No one is complete. No matter how complete you think you are, you still are human and yeah, we have emotion. And we will always face problem. Sometimes, I just want to talk about the problems. I might laugh and go “crazy”but who know how confuse and how hapless I am.

To be true, I have few trusted friends in here that I think it would be comfortable to share my problems and ask for advise. This is also the initial reason for me to start a blog which to write out my feeling. But, I can choose either to be depress or trust other and share my problems. Now, I trying to change that, sharing problem need courage but it feel better when you share it.

Some people might think a partner for this but I think a true friendships is different. Someone that would shoot straight when you did something wrong when other didn’t want to mention it. Someone to share and willing to share their problem and experience. Sometime to give some memory that you think is stupid but you still smile when you think about it.

I have believe that I had found a family away from home. I believe that I can lean on them and they can lean on me as well. No matter how hard the path in front, I believe in what I do and challenges are there to make me a better person, when I believe I need to lean on someone, they are there and they too feel the same.

CV! Bintang Fundraising

2008-09-28T09:58:00.000+08:00

It been a long long time since I blog, well a lot of thing happen and I going to break to a few entry.

let started off with the Bintang Fundraising. For more detail about the event, can refer to our CV! Miri BLog (just click to enter). Basically, that day, I and Jun were the mobile ask for donation team. Basically, we just round and round the ground floor asking for donation(sadly, we can only access the ground floor). At one point, I was asking if the people are not moving as the people on the either side were the exactly same on our previous round.

It is quite some experience, As I also perform some dance and during “Hey mama”dance, George leg hit Azie head. ouch! but everything was ok.

Now is some of the picture for that event

Sorry the first “we”blocked

Donation Team

I just pass by XD

Since, that day was the Mooncake festival, next will how we celebrate.

It been a while....

2008-08-31T16:48:00.000+08:00

Well, free week is coming to an end. Well, there are of course things which I plan and didn't do but overall, this week is quite an enjoyable week for me.
I have the chance to go HLS and know about them which I am very interested in learning to be a public speaker and counselor if given the chance.
Beside that, also been helping out with the Youth day. and help my friend to register and he got the first prize :P but too bad, I didn't got any of the three main prize.
I also know more about some of my friend since we able to hang out more which is something I didn't do for a long time.
However, there are something that didn't go on plan. But. nevermind, I just need to work for it after free-week. Hopefully, everything go smoothly

Believe in Believe

2008-08-13T20:14:00.001+08:00

Yup, there is a lot of problems in life. Or else life will be boring. Scared of what so ever is not I should do even I admit I am do this. But, I now know what I should do, believe in what I believe. Thinking too much just add up more depression, be happy, there might have things that you will have or don't but keep believe that there is reason for it.

I just forget about this. believe is a kind of magic. A magic that make dream become reality.

Weird feeling......

2008-08-12T21:16:00.001+08:00

It been some time. I didn't blog anything. Basically, O-week have already passed, CV! gathering already passed, High School already passed. I am quite busy nowadays, not really though. A lot of things pop up. Assignments, Quiz is coming up next week. You can't always predict the future, plan to transfer is now postponed. Now, doing all my best to survive the remaining years. Ai....... Of course, there are worry as well.

Feel like can't wait for tomorrow but so fear for tomorrow. Maybe, no confident or I just used to be a loser. Again, feeling of wanting is making me feeling weird. yet, together it come, worry, scare of losing, scare of believing.

Starting to ask myself, what am I doing? what will I do? Why do I have these worry.

Seriously I have no answer, Maybe I just want to remind myself not to put high hope as it can 'kill' me again. All I can do is to write this down hoping this feeling go away. I hope tomorrow is a shiny day so is the future.

Meaningful stuff

2008-08-02T22:06:00.001+08:00

Quite meaningful

在日本發生了一件千真萬確的事：
有人為了裝修家裏，拆開了牆；
日式住宅的牆壁通常是中間架了木板後，兩邊批上泥土，其實裏面是空的。
他拆牆壁的時候，發現一隻壁虎被困在那裏一根從外面釘進來的釘子釘住了那只壁虎的尾巴。
那人見狀，既覺可憐又感好奇，他仔細看了看那根釘子，天啊！那根釘子是十年前蓋那房子的時候釘的。
到底怎麼回事？
那只壁虎竟然困在牆壁裏活了整整十年！
黑暗中的牆壁裏的十年，真不簡單。不對呀？
他繼而尋思，尾巴被釘住了，一個步子也跨不出的這只壁虎，到底靠什麼撐過了這十年？
他於是暫時停止了裝修工程看看它到底吃了什麼!他要一探究竟。
過了不久，不知從哪里又鑽出來一隻壁虎，嘴裏含著食物...啊！他一時愣住了，
這是什麼樣的情形啊？為了被釘住尾巴而不能走動的壁虎，
另一隻壁虎竟然在十年的歲月裏一直不停地銜取食物喂它。
我聽了以後，很感動，真的也不去想它們之間的關係：
親子，朋友，異性，手足....在人類的社會中隨著電腦的普及，人與人獲取相關的資訊更快速，但是人與人之間的距離是否也越來越接近呢？...所以永遠也不要放棄你所愛的人！

O-week sem 2 2008 over

2008-07-26T20:32:00.001+08:00

finally over, tired and exhausted. yet feeling of Proud, Happy, Sad and all kind of feeling all mixed together. Ya, so it equal to emotionally unstable. basically, this is the most wonderful O-week, I been to.

It is first time, I have become a SOAR Advisory to such a wonderful group of people. like I said, smaller in number doesn't mean it not the best. it also applied to the SOAR team. we just basically have fun. YA "FUN" literally. I feel the spirit of teamwork and fun just like my first time as a SOAR. I also been so involve that I think I really gonna miss it.

And that all I want to say. BUT before that

Liang~~~ ah~~~Liang~~~ah~~~Liang~~~ah~~~Liang

Season of the Mist

2008-06-25T20:29:00.001+08:00

When we study in Geo in high school last time, Malaysia is sunny all year but we does have the rainy season, but for me there is a new season that need to add in.

It is called "Misty season".

Not this Misty though

It this

Every year around this time, the season to plant padi come, and to prepare the land to do plantation, farmer usually burn the land. For them, It is economically and save a lot of hard work to clear the land

And this is the time, Malaysia is cover with Haze, newspaper and news will cover report of Haze situation all over Malaysia.

Well, it is getting started in Miri and across Sarawak. The good news is you can go out anywhere without the fear of getting any mosquito bite in exchange of some odd smell in the air and your shirts. The Bad news I still in Miri and I plan to use plane to go back. Hope the Haze won't affect anything><.

Final is Over!

2008-06-14T10:24:00.001+08:00

After 2 week of study and 1 week of exam and mentally torturous days. Final exam had come to an end.

Even though there are not much positive I can take from this exam. But this is the first time where I feel like shout "Yahoo!"(this is not an adv). For such a long time, I really put so much effort.

I might not get all pass for the final yet this is the first time I think that I put so much effort into studying.

I don't know what will happen when the results are announce. However, I going to spend this momentarily problems-less 2-3 weeks.

Also, quite a few of my friends are going to Perth next semester, I wonder how it going to be. but no matter what, All the best!!!

Final~~~~

2008-06-07T15:49:00.001+08:00

Ai.... final again.

being study throughout the week,

the nearer it is, the more pressure I felt.

Ai..... no confidence at all...

look at past year but still don't know how to do

look at tutorial like forget what I learn,

Suddenly, if I am the stupidest person in this world.

Ai..... less than 3 days already.

hope I done enough this time.

Confidence....really need confidence.

To those also having exam, All the best, and may your brain with U.

A meaning picture

2008-05-25T22:23:00.001+08:00

just saw a picture from a forum. The Chinese words wrote that"When helping each other is not come from feeling pity but it is a nature thing, Then this is when the world feel warmth".

It hit me really hard. I am asking myself if I able to do that, sad to say not really. I am in place where the fittest survive and this is why we facing problem like global warming, crime.

I do have know meaning of "warmth" as I myself been in this situation before. Just you feel like in a falling down dark, deep hole. There, suddenly a hand reach to you and pull you out. A feeling that is indescribable.

Yet, this warmth seen so near as I believe everyone can do it yet it is far, very far as most people believe themselves and success of themselves not achieve success together.

Busy Busy

2008-05-24T23:03:00.001+08:00

It been quite sometime I didn't update anything. Partly because of busy, partly because of laziness. Not to say there is nothing happen. Every time, I thinking of update then there are work, then after some rest I am lazy to do anything anymore.

Last few week, strong wind struck Miri. Road were closed, a lot of tree fall down and a lot road sign destroyed and most commonly rooftop were blown away. Even my house got a few tile been blown away (Poor Gordon).

Since I be free until the next SOAR training around two weeks after my final (argh!). Since there is a lot of free time. I am now thinking of what to do during that time.

A few week before final exam, trying to get myself to study after some disastrous mid-term however the recent one is better, finger crossed. Everything seem to be fine. After some hectic and bad luck yet go through weeks.

I will try to update soon. I do remember I will always write an entry around exam weeks. Actually not to say always, it everytime.

I am Getting Old, Nooooooooooo

2008-04-27T09:22:00.000+08:00

Yea, I am getting, True, I am older each day, but for whatever reason, I am getting old real quick

beside of My hair turning white,

I also got hair become lesser problem

I am just only a week after my 21 birthday. Ahhhhhhh

Cannot imagine, the next few years...... Nooooooo......

How am I going to a find gf like that.... Noooooooooo

Have Your even Imagine...

2008-04-18T23:25:00.002+08:00

Have your even imagine a birthday

without a cake......

without any celebration....

spending the whole day sleeping and doing nothing

like this is like normal day

yup..... That my birthday...

Happy 21 and almost 1 day

It sound sad but it's ok I used to it... For me, everyday I am older one day... everyday is special... Don't believe me... Er....Come' on

But I gain a lot from today.....

from the free time which I think of a lot of things, a hell of things...

Thinking from that little twist that a few years ago, what I might be today.... However, I not like sad about things or so...

I now have my own way to motivate myself. I always believe I am special... That why god(whoever and whatever, one or more) had given me such a harsh journey up to date. I do blame sometimes but accepted with gratitude.

One year older, one long step from my old "childish" self. I might not the really nice guy again. I might not the keep on laughing guy again. I might be not the really crazy guy again. But, as one Chinese Say: If men aren't bad, Girl just don't like them.

Here I would like to thanks those who remember My birthday (even though I can use one hand and can still have leftover fingers ).

Really thank You

Although it just some simple words but it warmth my heart and highlight my otherwise boring, un-meaningful Birthday.

发闷, just bore

2008-04-16T21:12:00.001+08:00

Finish fluid, tomorrow having PA but feel heavy, lazy, don't know I want or need to do. I don't know if I am too bore or not. Maybe I just feel like I missing something.... what that.. To be true, I don't know...

Maybe these Kenny G music cause it. I don't know....

Maybe it about the test just now...

Maybe it about tomorrow test.....

Maybe I am just tire......

Maybe I just remember something that I am forgetting.....

Maybe there are things that I really should to say out.......

Maybe I just don't know what am I doing right now.... typing something..... ermm.... something weird...

Ya, maybe I know the answer for this... I just don't feel like saying it out.... Maybe it will just go away after I looking at the moon....

Maybe the moon......... indeed to represent something.

but can't find the moon......

Maybe..... this entry is really out of boredom

*sigh............

Kids Party at KRP

2008-04-12T18:18:00.000+08:00

Today as a CV!. We went to KRP (Kelab Rekreasi Petronas) to help out with the Kids Party. Basically, we just need to help to manage the games booth (sounds easier, We just found out how "easy" when we do our job).

I not gonna say much. I let some of the picture do the talking. Not much but hope you all enjoy~

The program list and the logo. But George ...............

want to hold hand with the kid in the picture also

He just love kids

Breakfast

Food~~~~~

when we are are having our nice breakfast

but wait, look at the egg

Deform egg. ~~Allan, make sure you didn't get all the nutrient XD. You wouldn't want deform egg, trust me~~

Then we go to other respective booth

Game 1 - Bull's Eye

Game 2 - Fortune Toss

Game 3 - Slam Dunk

Stoneface + smiling 24/7 = equilibrium XD~

Game 4 - Fisherman Day

Raymond, what are you doing

Game 5 - Lucky catch

Game 6 - Olympic Rings

Game 7 - Robin Hood

Game 8 - Aim it Right, My game ~~~ hihi

Game 9 - Pyramid Tower

Poor Zack, his pyramid never last for 10 second, and the kids aiming me at the side. wHaT the

Game 10 - Beat the Goalie

Then there is aerobic session when some of the red shirt pack doing something weird.

THis below is just on my own recreation, No one is been told what to do is the first place

don't believe me, look at the dark blue guy reaction. OS: wHaT on EaRtH are you all doing

OS: Ok, that wasn't so bad at all

Now, May is trying to us to do the same after the man said he like the "excellent" performance, NO~~~~~~~~

After a tiring three hour, it start raining.

No~~ I was thinking jumping on it and do the "rounding session"

We took the chance to take some free photo also.

Later on, we eat our KFC and then I go back to sleep, so tire.

I thought it going to be a piece of cake but it seem like the cake is hard to swallow. We are supposed to go town again but May couldn't get up from the bed. So, you get the idea la.

Overall, it tiring, fun and good to kill your time,get free food and get some hard earn $$$ but

there is still one question I want to ask

Why all the Kids keep aiming at me. I got tennis ball, volleyball even arrow hitting me. ARgHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

CV! Blood Donation Drive

2008-04-09T20:13:00.016+08:00

After two weeks of hard work, commitment and stress. It finally over!

I am delight not just because the events end successfully already. It included the experience that I gain throughout the weeks. I have to communicate with people include calling, talking and coordinate with them.

Beside that, I also have to implement my time management with really discipline which I never do in my university life. This is to keep up the progress of the event and not to forget my duty as a student.

However, the best thing of all is that I can review myself, what I suppose but didn’t do. Basically, although hard job but the reward is priceless experience which hopefully not the last one (I know it sound like MasterCard advert but it true).

There is some worry at the start. It is because I don't know if there will be people coming. Luckily there is more and more donour come so relieve.

Here some of the picture during the event

Our First donour

Look How excited we are

There is more and more people coming. relieved ~~

Hey, Azie, mana you mau pergi

Soya jelly~~~~!!!

"Core 2 duo"

Lecturer. thanks alot

look how sweet they are

don't be shy la,come smile :P

Overall, the event successful done, I wish to thank you all for those who are helping to make it a success. I also wish to apologize it there is any wrongdoing. Thanks

I just found out from my friend that today is the 100 days of 2008. Cool

End of Free Week

2008-03-30T17:01:00.000+08:00

Study free week is over,

Time to regret arrival again. If I have done this earlier, if I have done that earlier. One week pass through like a blink of an eye. Midterm, assignment due date is coming, University life that what we call.

A 1/3 semester have already pass but beside the busyness, I do enjoy life at the moment. I finally have the chance to OC something and on the way of doing it and finger cross that it went well.

I know a lot more friends than I have ever been during my three years here. I learn that if you not doing anything, thing will just remain the same. I also learn I have to be independent and hopefully dependable person for the other. I have more time management that I have ever been. I learned to appreciate blessing in disgusted when something not so good happen.

Ah, need to study already, midterm is coming up!!!

Study Free Week = study not free week

2008-03-24T23:41:00.002+08:00

Study Free Week 到了
从学期开始，忙碌了几个礼拜
orientation, 新的课程表,班clash
终于，可以休息一下
但，还有assigment的和功课
这星期后，还有 midterm
根本是 Study week 嘛

不过，在短短的几天内
要好好的把握时间
得到足够的休息
也可以考到更好的成绩

O-nite Sem 1 2008

2008-03-09T09:57:00.005+08:00

Becoming a SOAR again, I have the chance to join the O-nite for the new student for sem 1 2008. Overall, It was a success and it was crazy, yup totally wild.

At first, the new student are divide into groups that differentiate by their colour reben. Afterwards, each groups are to sent theirs own representatives to different sports where there is futsal, basketball and sand volleyball. While , the new student are playing, we the SOAR are playing Dogdeball, and some are taking crazy picture (believe me, you don't want to know) on the side.

Then, we go and take bath cause we are all sweating. Then, Raymond was able to get some AV from the bathrooms "exclusively". Then we go talk (we did got a circle and sing "home" from Micheal Buble using lalala, imagine it) while waiting to get dinner.

The food was nice except for the chicken wing which is salty. After we eat we go chit-chat and then Kenny from my foundation o-week group do a magic performance. This is the first time, I see a real magician live so it was very cool.

After that, we all got crazy and when the last live band come. we dance all nite. What so shocking is that even Alex come up and dance in the circle to challenge Hisham. Dr Alex go wild. Pity that I didn't manage to get the video. Haha. I also can't believe almost all the CV! are dancing on the stage which include me, OM.........

When it end everyone was tire. After we go for a drink.All go home and rest.

Positive

2008-03-01T18:51:00.005+08:00

Life is challenging. Yup, it sure is.

For me, the older up I become, the more challenge I face, now I start to understand why people said they don't want to grow up.

I still remember last time when I have any problem, I would say that" Why no one come and help me, Why this happen to me and more why why why"

But then I learn one thing "positive ". Yup, think positive. There is no reason when we are still sad or mourn of something happen early while your can actually do something at this moment.

actually this entry also serve to tell one of my friend. Don't be sad or depressed. Be positive, look at things from a different perspective. Maybe the problem can't be really solved but there is sure other way. Life is very short, frankly say even I myself don't know how much time I still have but what I sure is that I want to happy meaningful life that a life full of sorrow.

And Finally, what I always use

Everyday a Smile
Tomorrow a Better day